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Loz
08 July 2007 @ 03:58 pm
OK, every one on my friends list, I need your help! 

Im currently in the process of writing a new novel, and I need your faviourate girl names! I dont care how many you can give me, one or one hundred, but I need some new ideas! They can be unisex too. 

THANKS!! 

Luv Loz xoxo
 
 
Loz
12 May 2007 @ 10:10 pm
Rant  
I do realise that I havent posted in a while. But yeah, schools hard, ballet exams are hard ... what do you expect? 

 
 
Loz
09 April 2007 @ 02:51 pm
Why does Easter mean chocolate? Chocolate always makes me so sick :(. Plus side was that my family know me well enough not to get my any chocolate, downside is that I baby sat both Saturday and Sunday, so I had lots of chocolate then. I cant eat junk food any more, which is a good thing I suppose. It just makes me waaay too sick haha. 

Hope every one had a good easter! 
Luv Loz xoxo
 
 
Loz
03 March 2007 @ 12:55 pm
Yay! Went shopping today and got my pointe shoes!! Im happy with both pairs, but we'll see what Shaynie says. I have to take one pair back next weekend. I really like the Freeds, but again, we'll see what Shaynie says. 
Bolldy hell those toe pads are expensive! They were almost half the price of the pointes themselves! But I need them, I dont want to get feet that are so covered in blisters that I cant walk. 
Tried on at least 25 pairs though. I have weird feet haha. Wide at the toes and waaay narrow at the base. But thats ok, Id rather get the right ones then rush and get ones that are going to break my ankles lol. 
Well thats all from me. 
Luv Loz xoxo
 
 
Loz
27 February 2007 @ 04:18 pm

To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all - Oscar Wilde

 
 
Loz
10 January 2007 @ 08:12 pm
"her body is wasting away she now weighs just 60lbs and her heart and major organs have shut down, they are going to wake her up from the coma tonight to give us a chance to say good Bye to her"

Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. 

How could this happen? What good are hospitals if they cant save her? I cant believe they let it get this far. How could tey just let her waste away like that? 27 kilos and taller than me ... thats crazy.

Amy, we love you, please wake up 

 
 
Loz
10 January 2007 @ 02:41 pm

Mal's Song

When the stars shine bright through the engine's trail
And the dust of another world drops behind
When my ship is free of the open sky
That's a damn good day to my way of mind

There's a barren planet you never can leave
There's a rocky valley where we lost a war
There's a cross once hung round a soldier's neck
There's a man's faith died on Serenity's floor

But I stood my ground and I'll fly once more
It's the last oath that I ever swore

Chorus:

So, take my love, take my land
Take me where I cannot stand
I don't care, I'm still free
You can't take the sky from me
Take me out into the black
Tell 'em I ain't comin' back
Burn the land and boil the sea
You can't take the sky from me
You can't take the sky from me

When you see a man and he's standin' alone
Well you might just take him for an easy mark
And there's many a man has tried his hand
And there's worse than wolves in the borderland dark
From the savage men to the government hounds
Try to take what's yours and tear you through
Ah, but them that run with me's got my back
It's a fool don't know that his family's his crew

Don't you tell me what I cannot do
Don't you think I've got to run from you

(Chorus)

When you've walked my road and you've seen what I've seen
Well you won't go talkin' 'bout righteous men
You'll know damn well why I want to keep to my sky
Never cry 'neath nobody's heel again
I've seen torment raked 'cross innocent souls
Seen sane men mad and good men die
I've been hounded, hated, married and tricked
I've been tortured, cheated, shot, and tied
You won't see no tears when I say goodbye
I've still got my family and my Firefly

(Chorus)

Tags:
 
 
Current Location: Main Computer
i feel so: depressed
im rockin to: Mals Song
 
 
Loz
26 December 2006 @ 11:45 am
So Christmas time has onnce again crept up on us. Dinner with famous people on Christmas Eve was interesting ... if you didnt play golf you pretty much didnt exist ... fine by me. My cuz told me that he read my story and he said "Its phanominal (I know I cant spell) You have such a command over the english languge. I'd pay money for this." Then my uncle said if I sent him the manuscript he'd find me a publisher. YAY!! 
I must have been a good girl this year, because from Santa I got over $250 worth of stuff from the Australian Ballet, including 2 tickets to go and see their production of Swan Lake, a new poster, and a 2007 calander. I also got a tin full of kit kats which will proably rot in my room before I work up the corage to eat them

Other Pressi include:
-The second Elle Chronicals book (Im getting the final one in the after christmas sale)
-Charmed season 5 and 6
-Evanessence and Delta Goodrem piano books
-New PJs
-My ballet DVD
-5 free passes to Hoytes
-A sewing machine
-Shower stuff
-A DVD player
-Money
-Stick it! (from Kat)
-the new GHD hair straightner
-the promise of new dance leos from mum, but after Ive lost the weight I want to lose so they actually fit me.

Christmas lunch was great, with just mum me dad and james. I got the best photo with my two boys! They're sitting on my lap and we all have santa hats on! I cant wait to see how it turned out.

I hope every one had a great Christmas!! 
Luv always
Loz xoxo
I hope everyone
 
 
i feel so: calm
 
 
Loz
05 December 2006 @ 07:20 pm
"Shes lost heaps of weight though"


 
 
i feel so: crappy
 
 
Loz
13 November 2006 @ 03:35 pm

He screams, he hits, he abuses me.
I can't cry
because then Im a selfish cow with no respect
I can't scream back
because then Im a bad daughter who doesnt care her mother is dieing
I cant hit back
becuase then he crys
all I can do is take it
and i cant even do that any more

 
 
i feel so: depressed
 
 
Loz
12 November 2006 @ 04:38 pm
I've imagined the conversation a million times in my head, and some how I've managed to come up with a million ways they'll say "no". Most involve lauging in my face. I'm so scared. There has to be at least one way that they'll say yes, but I just cant see it. 

Im so over the fucking exams. I dont care if I fail. I dont care if every other person out there is smarter, and studying. I. DONT. CARE. English .... meh i can do it .... Science .... who gives? .... History .... passible .... Geo .... not a hope in the verse .... Math .... refer to geo ... 

My weekend sucked.

All exept the dance consert which was freaken awesome and I scored a free trophy. 

Im passed tired. Im passed caring. Im doing my HSC, then I'll care, coz i'll be doping things I WANT TO DO.

Yeah, as you can tell, my moods not the best right now.
 
 
Loz
12 November 2006 @ 02:56 pm
A pretty poem



 
 
Loz
04 November 2006 @ 02:58 pm
Yay! New layout! Though I can't seem to be able to see the background image ... so if any one knows how to make the background image show more I'd love to hear how! 
But other than that nothing much is happening.
Ballet concert in a week. 
Not ready. Haven't gotten my goals yet.
Exams in a week.
School is finnished in 2 weeks.
Can't wait.

Luv Loz xoo
 
 
Current Location: at my desk
i feel so: cold
 
 
Loz
25 October 2006 @ 02:00 pm
"When the emotion becomes too strong for speech  you sing; when it becomes too strong for song, you dance."
 
 
Loz
23 October 2006 @ 06:34 pm
Why can't I be normal? Why can't I cry?
It seems that every one has someone they can call on to help them through a hard time, and I have no-one. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends , they're all I have ... but I can't talk to them
I can't talk to any one. 
No-one would ever understand.
 
I can't take it any more. Im sick of every one, I laugh at the simplicity of their problems.  I wish I was better, I wish there was a cure. But there isn't, just learning to hide it, so they think Im better, and they leave me be. 
Dancing used to help, and maybe it still does, but now its so sreious, I can't just do it for fun. It's work-work-work, at home more than at the studio. And with school closing, stress is on, I cant get away.
I can never get away
Even Cinderella got some one ... her life sucked ... but who do I have? I can hear you reading this, thinking "You dumb fuck, open your eyes and see the friends you have ..." But no matter what you say, you shall never know, and even if you did, you could never understand. 
You'll never understand
And if you nod and pretend to, the rumour spreads ... and I know I can't trust you ... you'll "just tell one person" then they'll tell another .... and my life will be ruined ...
I hide it from you ... I learnt to hide it when I was first laughed at when I was three ... now its killing me ... slowly ... surely 

You'll never understand
 
 
i feel so: calm
 
 
Loz
22 October 2006 @ 08:16 pm

From random sites

The colour screwed up .. sorry

 
 
i feel so: pissed, sad, shocked, annoyed
 
 
Loz
14 October 2006 @ 05:56 am
Hey guys!
So with the hols over I guess its time I showed my work ... here are my first lot of firefly and ballet icons!

Ballet )


Firefly )
 
 
Current Location: At my desk
i feel so: artistic
im rockin to: All the small things ~ Blink 182
 
 
Loz
12 October 2006 @ 07:36 pm
Two reasons why Im NOT as crazy as you all seem to think

Reason A )

Reason B )
 
 
i feel so: distressed
 
 
Loz
12 October 2006 @ 09:12 am
It calls to me, day and night
Scaring me out of sleep, making me wish I'd never started this thing
Its lead weight hangs off me,
dragging me down
I can't stop even if I wanted to
People stare when I walk down the street, their whispers following me
"Unhealthy... dangerous ... beyond help ..."
I can't stand
mirrors, they freak me out, telling the truth I no longer want to hear
My bubble isolates me, keping me from the world,
No matter how
hard I try, how tired I become, It is always there, mocking me
It's laughter rings in my ears, stopping me from doing what is so tempting
I wish it would leave, but I know that's a
lie
Deep down I know I need it,
to get to where I
need to be
It helps me, pushes me, scares me away from what will drag me down,


But its unhealthy, scary and dangerous
 
 
i feel so: tired
 
 
Loz
13 September 2006 @ 06:25 pm

My faviourate Dance qoutes! Its a long post, and some of them are repeated, so sorry about that. 
Luv Loz xoxo






 
 
Current Location: bedroom
i feel so: depressed
im rockin to: Evanessence ~ Going under